It's been a week since the liquor cabinet was calling me. I wish the liquor cabinet wouldn't call to me....Alcohol is so NOT the answer to my problems. Alcohol just seems to cover up the problem's for a little while and make's you feel a little less like the "machine" that you and your life currently has become. I don't need to cover up my problem's...I need to figure out exactly what they are and deal with them. So far I've been pretty bad at figuring out what my problem's are and dealing with them.
You ever just have "one of THOSE" days? Recently, it seems that I've been having them on a pretty regular basis when it comes to my place of employment. I'm basically sitting around waiting for my supervisors to come up with something new and exciting to get on my case about. After basically being told that I'm the problem, I have developed a little bit of an attitude towards my supervisors. I pretty much show up do my job, go home and only talk to my supervisors when they talk to me. Now I'm not in a position where I can leave my job.....The job market where I'm at is pretty dismal.....So I'm pretty much sucking it up and being a gluton for punishment.
On top of all of my work related issues, I've had a pretty crappy beginning to 2009 also. Well, pretty much from the end of November until now (so far anyway) has been pretty dismal on good things happening to me. Which if you want the highlights you can find them in this post.
Currently, I feel like I'm nothing more than a machine. There really aren't enough changes to my daily routine right now to NOT consider myself a machine. 4 days a week I go to bed between 9 and 10 in the morning, get up between 6:30 and 7 that night, get ready for work, leave between 8:20 and 8:30, show up at work around 9, work for 10 hours and go home and do it all over again. On my days off, it get's mixed up a little bit more but not much. The last couple of days it's been raining so Ms. Laci and I haven't been going out for walks, because she doesn't "do" rain or inclimate weather real well.
to be continued.....